Cosmic Embrace

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It was dark, hot and sticky in the room. 

3:18am on a summer Sunday and my husband had drawn his last a mere 20 minutes ago. 

My daughter held on to her dad not letting go, while her husband held on to her, giving her strength. My son hovered, finger under his father’s nose, hopeful that just maybe, maybe he might suddenly alight and breath again. 

I stood lost at the edge of the bed. Relief washed over me, then guilt, sadness, and finally unimaginable pain. It had been the longest 4 weeks since the diagnosis, and yet also, somehow, the shortest. 

I was alone now. Not technically, I know. My children were there, and in the coming days swarms of other family and friends too. And yet still, somehow, I felt so very much alone. 

Would this be my new normal?

“Cosmic Embrace” speaks to that feeling of being surrounded, but separate. Lovingly encircled, but in a space all your own.

100cm x 100cm 

Acrylic on Canvas